A balanced life is the ideal and I am always striving to live in the happy middle place. However, that being said, I did not pick the right job for an ordered and balanced life. I cannot control the chaos that comes my direction when interest rates drop and I am left responding to every call. OK, I do not believe that I do not have control over my schedule. I do. My goal to pay my bills leaves me choosing the chaos. Or is it the bills?
My life is a dichotomy with two different personalities waring within me for two very different outcomes. One side of me is constantly striving to be in control of life’s circumstances so that I can keep my high strung self calm. Peace, tranquility and a sense of serenity is the desire of this self. The other craves adventure and change. Too much routine drives this side of me crazy. How can two desires live within one self you may ask? I don’t think they co-exist very well. The fun side is definitely winning, and I ‘m not so sure I’m disappointed about that.
One side of me says “don’t do it. It might be too risky for the peace you desire” and the other side is screaming for excitement and new experiences.
I have come to reason that my job is perfect for me. I hate the chaos of it but without the chaos there would be no adventure. It is the unknown of my every day schedule that is foundational for the thrills I seek.
There is a price to be paid for living in ones passions. For me it means giving up the safety of the predictable place. I know what happens there and it is good but what is beyond the corner? I cannot know unless I go there!
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