Cambria is my oldest daughter. She is fourteen. It seems just like yesterday she couldn't pronounce her name so when people would ask, she would reply, "Camabia". We looked up the meaning of her name one time and it said: coming from Wales; the Cambrian era. Not sure what all that means. If I were to define what Cambria means it would be: Beauty, poise, abundant laughter, and deep seeded confidence.
This week, Cambria has had a horrible double eye infection that 'hurts like a mother' (there is irony in this pun). One part of me is in anguish because she is so miserable. The other part of me is enjoying being nurse maid. I almost feel like she is 4 again. The truth is, there are 4 years left until she leaves for college.
Last night I had the privilege of being up at 2:00am with her. I was able to give her some medicine, refresh hot compresses for her eyes, wipe the tears that occasionally fell, and crawl in bed beside her till she went to sleep. I hope she remembers the night forever. I know I will.
I'm running out of time. I wish I could go back. I'm not sure what I would do different. I could say I would cherish those midnight wakings more. However, sleeplessness effects one's perspective, especially if you've had several nights, weeks, or even months of it. No. Going back isn't an option. Being fully present in each and every moment I have left is. It's all I can do.
Cambria & Cymru are forms of names for the small country of Wales. Its a fascinating area ringed by castles built by the English to keep the celts at bay.
I recall the days when my children needed me for everything (not just lifts & money!). Their independence & maturity are signs that we are doing a good job but boy do I miss falling asleep on the sofa with a child laid on my chest.
Cadey only has to look at me with a smile to melt my heart…if I get a cuddle from her I’m set for the day.
Cherish them Michelle. Gods gifts on earth get no better than our children.
Craig,
Thank you for your warm words! We all, who have children, have so much in common.
I hope we will get to see the Wales region someday. Perhaps, we will find Cambria to be very much like her name.
In a beautiful dream, your family would be our tour guides!
Blessings!
Wow, I know it’s tough watching our kids go through each season of life. All be it, it is them living through it, we feel every emotion with them. The intensity of feeling as a parent feels even stronger that it was as a child at times.
This past year has taught me to be thankful for every day with my children. I pray that we will all be able to see them grow and have children of their own. We have some serious spoiling to do! Each stage is beautiful in it’s own way. May we enjoy and rejoice in each day God gives us.
Love ya!
Sheri
Sheri,
I loved what you said,”The intensity of feeling as a parent feels even stronger than it was as a child.” There is a lot of truth in that or our memory has just failed us in remembering our childhood emotions:)LOL!
I pray for all of us to be able to watch our kids grow up!
hugs,
Michelle